101 Things About Me
2002 :: 2003

i've never been so colourfully-see-through-head before i've never been so wonderfully-me-you-want-some-more and all i want is to keep it like this you and me alone a secret kiss and don't go home don't go away don't let this end please stay not just for today

I'm the girl who wears a reindeer horn headband and jingle bells around her neck... in August.

I'm the girl who laughs louder than everyone else and isn't afraid to dance on top of the table to "Show Me, Show Me, Show Me" (The Cure.)

I'm also the one who will curl up in a ball and refuse to get out of bed, kindly telling any would-be motivators to go away when they try to drag my grimy-haven't-showered-in-three-days self out from my hidey hole.

I battle with depression, and sometimes I lose. I've been known to SI in the past, but I'm (mostly) over that. I'm fiercely protective of my children and my friends. I'm lost, lonely and afraid most of the time, but I am truly and deeply an optimist at the very core of my soul. In many ways, I'm just like you, even though neither of us want to admit it. In many ways, I really am as free and unique as my name.

When I'm angry I rage, when I'm sad I fill with heart wrenching sobs... when I'm happy I'm a radiant burst of sunshine lighting up the room. I'm colorfully-see-through-head. I'm less than sane, but probably more real than most.

And I kinda like it that way.