Saturday, October 13, 2007
Horror Scope Follow Up
(more for people who are logged in)
It goes without saying that the more time I have to write, the less I have to write about. The more interesting my life is, the less time I have to invest in documenting proof that I, er, well, okay, maybe I’m not interesting, but there are interesting things to observe around me. Lately, it feels like I’ve been in a whirlwind of to-do lists, calendars and schedules, and frankly, I don’t much like it. That is to say, when I’m in the midst of it, I handle it, I’m good at it, life goes on at a rapid and consistent pace, but underneath, I mostly just wanna curl up in bed with a good book or sit at my bead desk and fiddle with beads or, well, just watch the rain fall.
Yes. I’m innately lazy. We knew this.
At the same time, there’s a wild and fierce pride at being able to juggle so much all at once and keep so many projects on the go without (usually) missing a beat. I remember telling Josh about how I’d spent the whole day/weekend/whatever cleaning and he had commented, “But don’t you feel SO good afterward? Doesn’t it give you such a deep sense of pride in yourself and your home?” Uh. No? It’s just shit that has to be done. I understood what he meant, but I never really could relate to that feeling until undertaking all this stuff with the kids. Some of the stuff I do I sort of hate, but it feels good getting it done afterward. Some of it I really, really enjoy. Some of it I hate until I’m doing it, then I really enjoy it. Some of it I look forward to until I’m doing it, then I hate it.
Such is life.
Anyway, as promised, my explanation of the Horror Scope entry.
Liberty at 10/13/07 01:54 AM
Whew. Sorry for that lengthy post. *blush*
I doubt anyone will seriously read all that. But it felt good letting it all bleed out. Purging of poison, I guess.
Andrea at 10/13/07 10:48 AM
No one will READ all that? Liberty, clearly your readers are willing to read lengthy posts… they do read YOU, don’t they? I have a feeling that they know what they’re getting into when they click ‘more’... don’t you? *giggle*
Anyway… you know I think you’ve done the right thing in regards to Karrie. Yes, maybe she was doing the best she could, but regardless she wasn’t at all effective. You did the only thing you could do, and it worked out for the best. *hug*
You’ve done an amazing job lately of making sure Cub Scouts keeps running in your area. I know I’d have been tempted to give up many many times, but you keep working so hard for them. I truly hope other people (ie Marilyn) see how hard you’re working for an organization that you’ll be leaving soon enough.
Time to get ready for the NEXT project! How’s the Girl Scout thing going, anyway? *evil grin*