Wednesday, May 01, 2002
I hate goodbyes…
Daniel is travelling tonight on a plane
I can see the red tail lights heading for Spain
Oh and I can see Daniel waving goodbye
God it looks like Daniel, must be the clouds in my eyes
“Daniel” - Music by Elton John Lyrics by Bernie Taupin
And so begins my six week stint as a single mom. The last few days have been miserable. We’ve argued and picked at each other. He said some really horrid things. I’ve felt like curling up in bed and never climbing back out, and as a result have been absolutely useless.
He never did finish getting all of the paperwork in for the house which means we didn’t close yesterday, or today. Nor will we be closing tomorrow. I’m hoping against all hope we can get things cleared up and close on Friday. It’ll mean me driving up there alone (or him driving back in the wee early hours Friday morning so we can all go back up together) but at least it’ll be done and we’ll own the stupid house instead of this not knowing, halfway stuff.
This isn’t turning out at all how I had planned. I wanted to drive up there with him. See where he’d be staying. See our house! See the city where we’ll be living. I wanted to hold him and spend some time dreaming and planning of our new life to come. I hadn’t anticipated on watching him drive away from me while I tended a house I hate in a city I have never truly been a part of. This is only temporary, I know. Six weeks will go by and once we’re together again, the time will seem like it passed so quickly.
In the meantime, I miss him so much. Already.
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Comments
Some dude in Spain at 05/02/02 03:02 AM
Some dude in Spain misses you a lot. That same dude can’t wait to hold you. Te quiero, my amor!!
supafly at 05/03/02 12:44 AM
Look on the bright side; now you can throw out all the shit he never let you touch before, and when the family moves up to Clearlake, you can have a clean concience and honestly say “you don’t know where it all went”.
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skyra at 05/01/02 02:42 PM
That is hard Liberty…I hope that the 6 weeks pass quickly. Whenever Mike is going out of town I find that we are at each others throats for a few days prior to him leaving as well. The first few days with the kids are always the hardest…but you adjust quickly and get into a groove!!